My meandering path through life.

12 weeks

Twelve weeks…

I look back at the past twelve weeks; not quite a dream, not quite a nightmare, but somewhere in between it all.  I have been scared, angry, numb, depressed, happy, and estactic. Some people say I look happier; that I find hard to see as I feel like I am stumbling in a fog at times.

What I have found that has kept me grounded is my faith, my family, my friends. And when it comes down to it, what else is there.

On facebook one day I wrote this:

“After life comes to a screeching halt or at least it seems like. It’s an interesting thing to watch as things begin to happen and some cases not.
Lives that had a common ground, begin to separate and at times it feels like you get left behind. All I can say is mixed emotions. I stand in awe of those that brave this time, and I cheer for those that find their footing and make a better world for themselves. It can feel full of turmoil, but as with any storm there is a calm place where you can find peace.”

I felt like was I tossed from the car and left behind and my life had come to a standstill. But I thank my faith in God, that my life is being prepared for a new direction, a new place in life, a new opportunity. I thank my family for standing behind me, for their love, for the unwavering support, for their backs that carried me; I think my friends for sitting with me and listening, for not abandoning me, for reaching out.

I know something new is coming, something with new challenges, new satisfaction. My faith tells me so.


3 responses

  1. Stuart,

    Life will surprise you at every opportunity. I’m happy to see that you have weathered this particular storm with grace and eloquence.


    March 2, 2012 at 8:06 am

  2. danwdooley

    Stuart, I don’t know what all you’ve gone through but the descriptions of your emotions are painfully familiar. I could have pretty much used the same words to describe things I felt a few years ago. But, we know that God rarely lets us see ahead. We do see behind us very well though and looking back now, His work was all too obvious. He carried my wife and I through and He will do likewise for you. His Grace is sufficient.

    Dan Dooley (another CZ fan)

    May 13, 2012 at 2:36 pm

  3. czkali / David

    Stuart — I do not know what you’ve gone through or are gonig through but I do know in whom I believe and know His words are true and faithful.

    fear not, for I am with you;
    be not dismayed, for I am your God;
    I will strengthen you, I will help you,
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
    (Isaiah 41:10 ESV)

    Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. (James 1:2-4 ESV)

    And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28 ESV)

    June 14, 2012 at 9:18 am

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s